My "me" time

So, I  asked myself...Why blog? Why do I even have one of these things?? It wasnt until recently that I started to think to myself... I wonder what i was doing,thinking,feeling this time last year ?or even this time last week.????.. as a college student its so hard to keep up with everything.. from what paper you have to write, the next test you have, to what was said in Chapter last Monday! Even though once you get to college and you have your own time, your own place, and for most of us our own "ways" we have developed of doing things outside of how our parents do it ( although i find myself doing things just the way my mom does them no matter how weird i thought they were growing up) anyways back to my point ..we realize that life sometimes gets difficult, scary, and sometimes through out those dark scary days we feel uneasy..naturally!
I ve decided to blog for several different reasons! One being that I feel as if it is important for everyone to have their own "me" time and be able to reflect on their day ... So besides running this is my way of doing so. Everyone has a different way of going about that.. for my best friend.. she loves bubble baths.. for a mother it may be to enjoy watching her children sleep, for a father it maybe taking his little boy fishing or hunting and enjoying the silence of nature or even throwing the ball back and forth, and for an athlete it may be doing what they love best.. their sport! Also I ve decided to blog to be able to look back on all the memories, silly moments, tears and laughs that have been made!

So as I sit here today I reflect on the past semester as a whole .... goodness is there a lot to tell! There are so many people that influence my life... and there are also people that God has brought into my life that i will always be eternally thankful for! First comes first My God... he has blessed me beyond belief and has forgiven me, loved me, and taking me in at my lowest points and never sees my any differently than his Daughter that he died for! My God is an Awesome God! and will never be behind me or infront of me but always right next to me! 2nd -- My parents.. my mother and father have influenced me to have an amazing work ethic and have shown me how it feels to get something you have worked so hard for! My parents are my best friends.. they are there for me whenever i need them either a phone call away or next door in the living room! My mother and I have a unconditional bond that can never be broken. My dad is my hero! Always there to mend a broken heart or shoot the shit with if i am in the mood for that or need a laugh! ;) pretty cool dad i must say!  My little Brother..is my heart... 99 % of the time he is a pain but for the most part i find myself thinking about his future and all the things i can protect him from when hard times come his way... he is so into girls.... girls.girls.girls...oh and maybe some football and baseball in between... but i know his first little heart break is coming! My family is my biggest asset!
3rd-- My friends and Sisters. Delta Gamma has impacted my life more than I ever thought it would! I have girls all around me to love! I love to Love!! I love to have personal relationships with people that i can talk to laugh with cry with and pray with! Thats what I have with my sisters and best friends! They are my get way car most of the time when i need to get out or have a crying sholder or even a beer to relax from a hectic day! they are there alright... whether it be with a tissue, a tub of ice cream and a movie, or even a six pack! ;)                       

                                                       Mom and I when I was 2 yrs old

                                                           Dad, Austin, and I

                                                                     My sisters

You see God has shown me all about several different people this semester. Their hardships, struggles, strong points, talents, and way of life. As I visited my Great Grandfather Saturday I realized I live life in the fast lane... where in the Ivy house hold things go slow.. they soak up every moment they have with one another! ( which i recently posted in one of my last blogs) But it as inspired me to do the same! I have sat back most of the past 3 days and just thought about everyone that has come in and out of my life... and one of the ones that God has brought to me to inspire me! My great grandparents are two of those people! They love unconditionally and live to serve our God. I pray and hope that one day i will have great grand children, and that i can be just an asset to them as much as mine have been to me! They are two people who are so affectionate  and love nothing more than to hear the voices of their family! and wow what a family have they made!! I am so proud to say that i have that strong southern Ivy heritage!
                                                             My Great Grandparents
                                                                         My Ma
                                      
                                                                 Eating a cupcake

     There is also someone else who God has brought to my life that has impacted me more than I think he knows. This person is someone who I hold dear to my heart, Kyle Barbeck! Kyle and I met and the end of last semester going into the summer! Sadly, we never got the chance to hang out as much as we has hoped! Kyle was a former Ole Miss baseball player.. and I am a Diamond Girl which is how we came to know one another.. Kyle had told me at the end of the season that he would not be returning to Ole Miss! Broke my heart! because at this point we had gotten to know each other pretty well.. and he was someone i considered no longer a acquaintace but a friend! Kyle is someone that I know for a fact God has put into my life for several different reasons. How do i know? Because after Kyle left Oxford our relationship didnt end.. if anything it just got stronger.. We have since then keep contact almost everyday! He went to North Carolina to play Summer ball and we talked everyday throughout the summer. Whether it be through text messaging or phone calls I have gotten to know  KB very well! Kyle is someone who has inspired me to never give up! Kyle has been through so much just within the past year to two years. His mom was diagnosed with Breast Cancer... which she has now conqured and is cancer free! What a strong woman she is! He loves and adores her so much! (Just the other day he told me he was doing laundry ...so she didnt have to! So thoughtful and sweet!) Kyle also had to deal with leaving Ole Miss! It wasnt a decesion he made himself but one that life threw at him ... and boy has he sured rolled with the punches and shown just how strong he is! He is currently at a ju -co in Texas and just signed with MIZZOU and will be back in D1 baseball next spring! I am so extremely proud of him!

He is back on the mound doing what he loves best,to the best of his ability,and using the talent God gave him to shine! All of his hard work to climb back up to the top has paid off.. and has been such an influence to me to never quit even when others around you or life seems to sometimes be telling you to! He has also recently lost one of his grandfathers and his other one has just recently become ill also! He gets to see his other grandfather tomorrow ( so i hope he has a wonderful day with him)! I am so very blessed and thankful that God has brought someone as special as Kyle to my life for me to enjoy talking with and  laughing with, he is even someone who here recently has seen my tears and been there for me through such a difficult time in my life these past couple of weeks! He is someone I have enjoyed gettting to know and becoming so close with and has made his way into my heart and has touched my life tremendously with his determination! I am so excited to see where God takes him with his talents! So i must say a Special thanks to KB for being such an inspiration to me! ;)
                                     
                                        Kyle and I @ Ole Miss football game this season

So as you can see this is why i ve decided to blog!!!! and I hope for any of  you out there who have considered to do so to try it... and use it as a time to reflect and remember such special or even hard times in life.. and use it as your "me" time!!!! Because I have def learned that God has blessed me in so many ways and its time that I start slowing down in life to realize it!